Chapter 8 - The Odds Changed, Not the Game

Audrey met her father alone at a small café near his house. She chose the place because it had no family photographs on the walls and no empty chair beside her for anyone to comment on.
Dad arrived early. He had two coffees waiting and looked unsettled by the fact that she hadn't come to his kitchen, where he could offer food whenever conversation grew difficult.
“Thank you for meeting me,” he said.
“You asked.”
“I didn't know whether you would.”
Audrey took a seat. “I wasn't ignoring you. I was waiting until we could discuss this without Ryan making it entertainment.”
Her father studied the lid on his cup. “He does take things too far.”
“That's true. It isn't the whole problem.”
“I know.” He looked up. “I should have listened when you asked me to stop. I was embarrassed, and instead of admitting that, I got angry at you for being upset.”
The admission was so unlike his usual performance of certainty that Audrey hesitated before replying.
“Why did it always come back to whether I brought somebody?” she asked.
He thought for a while. “I worried you'd end up feeling left out. And then we made jokes about it because that was easier than saying we worried.”
“Do you hear how backwards that is?”
“I do now.”
“I'm not asking you to feel sorry for me because I'm not married. I'm asking you to stop acting as if the family has the right to judge how my life is going.”
Her father nodded. “You're right.”
He said it without adding but. Audrey hadn't realized how much she had been bracing for the second half of his sentence until it failed to arrive.
“I liked seeing you laugh at dinner,” he continued. “I told myself if you were laughing, you were fine.”
“I was trying not to make everyone uncomfortable.”
“I can see that.”
He reached into his jacket, then stopped. Audrey raised an eyebrow.
“Please tell me that's not another twenty-dollar bill.”
“It's a photograph of the family last Thanksgiving.” He looked embarrassed. “I was going to say you seemed happy.”
“I might have been happy in that moment. It doesn't make every joke harmless.”
He put the photograph away. “You're making this difficult.”
“I'm making it honest.”
After a moment, he smiled a little. “That sounds like you.”
They talked for another half hour. He asked about her conference before asking about Dominic. This time he listened to the answer, including that she had met someone she liked but wasn't ready to place him in the center of a family discussion.
“I'd like to meet him someday,” Dad said. “If you want that.”
“I'll think about it.”
“I understand.”
She wanted to believe he did. She also knew one conversation could not rewrite years of habit.
On her drive home, Ryan's message appeared on the family group.
Brother: Sunday dinner next week. Twenty says Audrey brings the famous guy. Fifty says she decides we're too embarrassing and leaves him at home.
Audrey pulled into a parking space before reading the replies.
Dad: Ryan. Stop.
Ruth: She has asked more than once. This isn't funny.
Ryan: I was kidding. Again.
Audrey stared at the sequence. Her father had corrected him without waiting for her to defend herself. It should have felt like progress. It did, a little. But Ryan's message proved that changing the odds wasn't the same as ending the game.
She called her brother.
“Did you see Dad tell you to stop?” she asked.
“I saw it.”
“Then why haven't you apologized?”
“Because I haven't done anything terrible.”
“You've spent years treating my relationships like a betting market.”
“Everyone jokes about everybody.”
“Tell me the last time Dad posted money on whether your wife would stay married to you.”
Silence.
Audrey continued, “Tell me the last time Aunt Ruth's potato salad stopped being about potato salad and became a verdict on whether she's worthy of love.”
“That's not fair.”
“Neither was turning my life into an ongoing experiment.”
He exhaled sharply. “So what do you want? An apology in the group? A speech?”
“I want you to understand why you need to apologize. If you don't, the words won't accomplish much.”
She ended the call before either of them could turn it into another competition.
That evening, Dominic came to Baltimore for dinner at a restaurant Audrey selected. She told him what had happened with her father and Ryan. He listened, then asked whether the family dinner was something she wanted to attend.
“I think I do,” she said. “I'm not sure I want to arrive alone, and I'm not sure I want to arrive with you for the reasons they'd assume.”
“Those aren't the only two options.”
“I know. That's what makes this annoying.”
“What would you choose if they weren't keeping score?”
Audrey watched a waiter place bread on the next table. The question was not unfamiliar, exactly. It was a version of the one he'd asked about whether she found the original bet funny. The difference was that she had become better at hearing her own answer.
“I'd like you to meet them,” she said. “Not to prove they were wrong. Because you're someone I care about, and my family matters to me even when they make it difficult.”
“Then I'd like to meet them.”
“I don't need you to speak for me.”
“I know.”
“And no dramatic entrance with a fleet of cars.”
“One car.”
“Without an escort marching through the dining room.”
“Daniel will be relieved.”
She narrowed her eyes. “You're enjoying this.”
“Immensely.”
Audrey informed her father privately that she would bring Dominic to Sunday dinner if the invitation remained open. She added one condition: no jokes, comments, photographs for group messages, or wagers about their relationship.
Dad answered quickly.
Of course. I'll make sure Ryan understands.
The next day, Ruth called.
“Your father sounds hopeful,” she said.
“He's allowed to be.”
“Are you?”
Audrey considered the question. She had been so busy anticipating the next humiliating joke that she had nearly overlooked how much she wanted things to go well.
“Yes,” she said. “I'm allowed.”
Before Sunday, she and Dominic discussed what they would do if the evening turned into another interrogation. Audrey would signal when she wanted to leave. Dominic wouldn't invent an excuse or tell the family what it was allowed to say. He would simply leave with her if she asked.
“That's a terribly unromantic plan,” she told him.
“It's efficient.”
“Thief.”
“Still not using the joke.”
On Sunday afternoon, Audrey received a final private message from Ryan.
I won't make a joke. But you know he's going to leave eventually, right? Men like that don't stay for family dinners in ordinary houses.
She read it twice.
The sentence was meant to sound like protection. It landed like another wager, this time on how quickly someone would decide she wasn't enough.
Audrey didn't send it to Dominic or ask him to disprove it.
She simply answered Ryan.
May you like
Whether he stays isn't yours to predict. And whether I stay at dinner will be my decision.
Then she picked up her keys and went to meet the man she'd invited.