Chapter 5 - The Woman Who Saw His Warning

Rebecca agreed to meet only after Mara sent a formal request asking whether she would voluntarily clarify her role in the loan application.
She chose a conference room at a small law office. Her own attorney would attend. I was relieved by that arrangement. A week earlier, I might have walked into the meeting expecting an apology. Now I wanted statements that could be checked against documents.
I still wasn't prepared to see her again.
She entered wearing a plain navy blazer over a white blouse, her golden-blonde hair gathered at the back of her head. The silver bracelet was still on her right wrist. Without my midnight-blue dress, she looked like someone I'd passed in an office lobby a hundred times.
I wondered whether she had returned the dress to Grant, folded it into a garment bag, or left it on a chair after the funeral.
She didn't offer her hand.
"Natalie," she said.
"Rebecca."
Mara asked everyone to settle before the conversation began. She explained that Rebecca could decline to answer questions and that any documents provided would need to be verified independently.
Rebecca's attorney nodded.
Then I asked the question I'd been carrying since the cathedral.
"When my father questioned Grant's loan papers, what did you know?"
Rebecca looked at the table.
"I knew he wasn't satisfied with the application."
"You were there."
"Yes."
"Did you hear him ask why I hadn't signed in front of him?"
She exhaled slowly.
"I heard him say the signature didn't look right. Grant told him you had agreed to the loan."
My fingers tightened around my notebook.
"And you believed Grant?"
"I believed him about several things I shouldn't have."
I waited.
Rebecca explained that she'd begun working at Grant's firm three years earlier. He placed her in charge of part of the company's marketing communications. Later, she established Thornton Brand Studio and invoiced the firm for separate contract work.
"Was the work real?" Mara asked.
"Some of it. I designed materials and managed campaigns. Some invoices also covered expenses Grant said needed to remain outside ordinary payroll records."
Her attorney made a note.
"What kind of expenses?" I asked.
Rebecca didn't answer at first.
"Travel," she said finally. "Furniture. Part of the rent on an apartment."
I sat absolutely still.
The way she said it made the arrangement sound administrative. I wondered how many lies could be hidden inside ordinary accounting words.
"Did you know the company needed emergency financing?"
"Not how badly. Grant told me a client payment was delayed. I helped prepare a presentation because he asked me to."
"And the authorization with my name?"
"It was already in the shared folder when I assembled the packet."
Mara leaned forward.
"Who placed it there?"
"I don't know," Rebecca said. "I didn't watch anyone sign it."
That answer disappointed me. I wanted someone to point to the person responsible. Instead, the truth was still divided among people who claimed not to know its most important part.
I turned to the funeral.
"Did you know that dress was mine?"
Rebecca's face flushed.
"Grant told me you didn't wear it and that he was giving it away."
"It was my father's birthday gift."
"I didn't know that until you confronted me."
"But you knew I was his wife."
"Yes."
"You knew my father had just died."
She nodded.
"Then why were you sitting in the family row holding my husband's hand?"
For the first time, her composure faltered.
"Grant said you were separating. He said I shouldn't have to hide anymore."
I laughed once. It sounded nothing like amusement.
"He told me nothing about a separation."
Rebecca looked away.
"I know that now."
I wanted to tell her that learning the truth late wasn't the same as being innocent. She had known she was involved with a married man. She had known my father had questioned the documents. And she had chosen to appear at his funeral in clothing taken from my closet.
But I asked about the envelope instead.
"You looked frightened when you saw Daniel carrying my father's letter. Why?"
Rebecca pressed her palms together.
"Because your father had written to us after the meeting. I recognized his handwriting. He told Grant that you needed to be told the truth."
"What truth did you think he meant?"
"The papers. The money. Us."
Three small answers, each heavier than the last.
"Did Dad know about the affair?"
"He didn't say the word," Rebecca admitted. "But he looked at us and said, 'Whatever you two are hiding, don't ask me to help hide it from my daughter.'"
I lowered my eyes to my father's notes.
That sounded like him.
Not an angry accusation. A boundary spoken plainly enough that anyone listening understood it.
Mara asked whether Rebecca would provide copies of her correspondence with Grant concerning the loan and the disputed vendor invoices. Rebecca's attorney said they would review the request and respond appropriately.
Before leaving, Rebecca turned back toward me.
"I am sorry about your father," she said.
I thought of the gentle smile she'd worn in the pew.
"I believe you're sorry he's gone," I answered. "I don't yet believe you're sorry for what you did while he was alive."
She didn't defend herself.
That evening, Daniel visited Helen's house with another page from Dad's file, one he'd found tucked behind the copy of the refusal letter. It contained notes from the end of the meeting with Grant and Rebecca.
Dad had written that he asked Grant to speak to me personally and withdraw the disputed authorization. Grant had promised to have the conversation before the deadline.
Beneath the note was a short acknowledgment in Grant's own handwriting.
I will discuss these matters with Natalie directly.
He had even dated it.
He had written that promise before my final telephone call with Dad.
For days, I'd wondered whether my father had died with doubts he couldn't put into words. Now I knew he'd given my husband a direct opportunity to tell me the truth, and Grant had chosen silence instead.
I laid the page beside Dad's birthday card.
Two different kinds of promises, written in two familiar hands.
May you like
My father had kept his promise to protect me even when he could no longer speak.
My husband had written his and gone straight back to Rebecca.